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sumpah dari hati gw yg paling dlaam sedalam dalamnya, GW BENER BENER MAU NANGIS
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ROLL DEPAN

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Tuesday, April 21, 2009 at 8:09am (repost from my facebook)


di penghujung weekend kmaren, ada 1 buah analogi yg ngena bgt buat gw..
di sekitar gw ada yg melontarkan analogi kayak gni.

"ibaratnya kepala udah berada didepan, tapi kakinya masih ada dibelakang"

It means, badan gw gak bisa bergerak dengan sempurna untuk berjalan. Kaki gw masih stuck ditempat lain, gak peduli kepala gw udah jalan kemana-mana (jangan dibayangin dalam arti sebenarnya ya)
tapi yg gw sadari sebenarnya badan gw adalah 1 kesatuan utuh..tp gw gak mau peduli itu..
gw membiarkan bagian dari diri gw terbagi-bagi..

Dan advice dari orang-orang yg melontarkan analogi tadi adalah:
Sebuah Gerakan Ekstrim. kepala gw boleh udah berada didepan, kaki gw boleh udah masih berada dibelakang, gw tetep bisa melanjutkan perjalanan tapi dgn sebuah gerakan ekstrim terlebih dahulu. Pilihannya adalah gw roll depan. Mungkin awalnya ini terdengar lucu, tapi kalo ditelaah bisa mengartikan makna yg berarti. Yg gw butuh ada berani berbuat hal yg besar (big thing), so i can catch up my next life.

Sedikit gerakan besar yg ekstrim dapat membuat gw melanjutkan apa yg tadinya hanya sebuah harapan-harapan. Bahkan mungkin hal-hal lain yg gak pernah gw bayangkan sebelumnya
Bagi gw ini bukan sebuah lelucon or ledekan lg,
kepala didepan kaki dibelakang-->sebuah gerakan ekstrim-->roll depan.
Simple but touchy

*gw pun belum tau ataupun yakin,bisa atau gak buat roll depan (kalo bnerannya si gw bisa.hehe). tapi yg pasti itu jadi pembelajaran buat gw..

---kalo mau liat komennya ada di sini http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=75304492445

about my 18th bday (30 November 2008)

mmmm, firstly, i dont know what to say....
bcoz honestly i didn't want to expect too much for my bday,

lately, all the things around me is going so bad...
beeeeeh, lets say its really worseeee,
i realise that i really want to angry to everyone, EVERY ONE!!!
huuuuuh
the things that happened to me it so sucks and terrible,
nothing can make me count my birth DAY so wisee,
more over there's no one special ( i thought)
in fact, someone that used to be special (and i used to be care about him also his bday),said congrats for my bday with really 'good' short message, but so deep!huaaaa but its never minee,
bcoz there are some people wake me up.....
huaaaa,
saturday nite, i watched jakjazz show, on the midnight, it was my bday, but nothing special,
i still watched afgan sang a song with all my friends....
and the show was over,
i was just thought, i would go home..
but my friends told me to stop at gas station,uuuuh, yeah i wanna pee tooo at that time,
but surprisingly, my college's friend showed up!
they took a cake, weeew, i was really shocked, but thanks meeen!
then, on the morning, was going so fine, till all my brothers said that they have something to do, but helloooooo, its my birthday, why they dont care about me?
sooo, i got to sleep, but my phone rang for many time. huuuh i just so mad! so i didn't pick up any call for me, i just keep sleeping ( so lazy)
jeng jeng
my dad said there was my friends in front of my house, weeeeeew,
yeah that my friends, they gave me a blue dolphiiin.. (thanks my 2 brotheeeers!!!!!!)

then, after my friend went home,
i went to tamini kemang,
huaaaaah, finally i got dinner with my 'BUSY' lovely family
and OH NO, they still care about me, there are some surprisee again for me,
my mom, give me a wallet that i really want to buy (she said that she had bought that before i told her that i really want it, its really nature i think!)
and how bout my two brothers?
they told me to go to the car, and take my gift from theem,
oh wooow, really2 woooooooooow
THERE WAS THREE BIG THINGS (their gift) in my car.....
oh my god, from that time, i feel so blessed....(thoucing moment)



suddenly, i have no more passion to eat my food. hahaha
im sooo busy to open my present from them. I GOT TWO BAGS and TWO PILLOWS...
huaaaaaaa, i really love u all my family

the next day, which is 1st December 2008
my friends in law faculty really want me to treat them,
first, i lil' bit dissagree if they want to take me out of ui to treat them
but, after i have thought about it, i think thats okeyyy...
when we got to the restaurant, there was some surprises for me..
there was a cake and a gift tooo from themm,
wew, i was so happy!!!!!!



now, i see something that i have realised.
eventhough there was no BIG party like last year,when i was 17th years old.
i think it really enough...really enough for my 18th..
hopefully its like someone's wishes for me that i sorrounded with sincere people around me..
yeah, so thank u......


for all, I LOVE U ALL!!!!!!
mmuach, thanks for every each care for me!!!!


(GW SADAR BGT NH BAHASA INGGRIS GW BYK BNGET YG NGACOOO, mav yaaaa,
yang penting gw bharap cerita gw ttap dapat dimengertiiiiiiiii...
mav mav mav mav bgt englishnya ancuuuur!)

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hmmmm... dengan dorongan dari pihak luar akhirnya gw memutuskan punya blog jg, even pembuatannya jg dibantu 0leh salah seorang tmen gw..
mungkin post2 setelah ini untuk repost2 notes yg udah pernah gw buat di fb, br nanti setelahnya maybe i can read many thing in here..

oke, i'd love to say hello with you ALL
i hope u can enjoy all the words that i write in here..